eLeanore: haha maybe he bore the grudge for 16 years thats why we never got along
Denewbie: haha i hink u both did la
Denewbie: dont u
Denewbie: haha we all quarrel with our parebts at times dont we
eLeanore: i hated him for what he did
Denewbie: i hated some pple for wat they did wat they did to me too
eLeanore: and i still hate him
Denewbie: then one day GOd asked me
Denewbie: Y do u hate me?

Why do you hate me ... why do you hate me why do you hate me why do you hate me why do you hate me...

Was a chat with a friend online, i became a cynic i became disillusionzed with life. Melancholy became my way of life. The 5 words resonated in my head, and this song came into my head..

When the music fades all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that’s of worth
That will bless Your heart

I’ll bring You more than a song for a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You’re looking into my heart

I’m coming back to the heart of worship
And it’s all about You
It’s all about You, Jesus
I’m sorry, Lord, for the thing I’ve made it
And it’s all about You
It’s all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I’m weak and poor
All I have is Yours, every single breath



I am sorry Lord, for i have lost my way, guide my path and hold my hand, i dont want to return to my world of anguish and pain. Help me Lord, uphold me, be my shield and be my strength, i know my weaknesses and i fear, i dont want to be lost again...
Amen.